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text from my #2 wild boy child yesterday… just the words a mama loves to read:

went to court today. not guilty

Having time/energy issues and this blog has taken the brunt. It’s been a busy and trying few weeks on our journey, not sure either of us was prepared for other than riding off into the sunset happily ever after! 

Feeling way more myself after a week or more of downtime, and now feeling like the riding off into the sunset part is beginning. No regrets about the decision, more the opposite… it’s more that it’s been harder than i had imagined. There is so much learning to do, so much still in dis-array, that it’s hard to find my beat in it.

After the stress of organizing it all, it’s also been hard to find that beat of living in the moment. Think i found it back this weekend. Looking forward to PEI, but at the same time enjoying the days we have here in montreal.

A few lovely lazy mornings in bed connecting helping the overall equation!

We had a mr kitty update over the weekend, which was good. He’s doing well in his new forever home, they really love him and totally get his big personality. He’s settled in with his new pet sisters/brothers now, and actually sleeps with their cat… which is hard to imagine from the cat bully of the neighborhood. It did my heart good to know all is well with him, was so hard to let him go.

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As you can tell by the lack of posting, we are careening towards moving day, and still have millions of things to do. Every day brings challenges on top of the list to say the very least.

But by the same token, the days also brings a major hurdle overcome, or even a bright gift from the universe. Our trip home brought such a gift.

We were road weary and haggard around the thousand island area, as there was a tonne of holiday traffic. Two seconds before the Gananoque exit so we decided to take a little detour and see the water, get a bite to eat and take a break from the madness.

We stumbled upon a sweet inn on the water, just what the doctor ordered. After taking a moment to smell the roses and gaze over the lake, we went in and made a bee line to a lovely table by the window.  Just as we sat down, deb’s eyes widened and she said “I can’t believe it”.

There at the next table to us, sitting there looking like visions of lovelyness were jannie and  and her girl karen (karen who created our great cartoon). It was an amazing co-incidence, co-incidence doesn’t even come close to describing. 

They had actually planned a little overnight get away (well it was suppose to be a romantic get away till we crashed it). It was a true gift, as i was  just thinking along the route that it’s pretty likely i won’t actually get to Ottawa for any long goodbyes.

We had a lovely visit over supper and were on our merry way back to montreal, glowing with the good fortune!

It’s official… today my #1 son moved out. It’s such a bitter sweet feeling. 27 years with such an amazing person to share my life with. Now he’s moving onto his own life and times… and me mine.

The past three years here in this house have been amazing. We’ve lived as three adults, separate lives, no parenting/child dynamic… all the while making a home and family in it.

He is my mystery one, don’t always manage to communicate well with him, don’t always rise up to his expectations.. but somehow it’s ok. I love him to his core, and know that he loves me…He’s my first born… nuf said

As we’ve gone through the past few months (since i broke the news that we are selling the house and running away from home), i’ve seen a big change. I can see he needed that push out to move onto stage 2 of life. As hard as it is to watch him pack and leave, i can totally see that it’s time.

of course i had to do a final motherly move and hide his Easter chocolate in the last load of his stuff… just hope his new room mate won’t tease him too much!

My biggest fear in all of it is how we are going to be able to retain and grow our relationship… but i know that’s just fear. The reality is, it’ll take effort and commitment but it’ll happen… or so i can hope.

For now i grieve a little, and feel sad that the era is done.

I couldn’t resist posting a picture for Cowboy Hat Day. It’s a picture of me and my girl on our first date… of course in typical kimmi style, she had actually moved in by then! Think we beat the all time lesbian route which is the Uhaul is the second date.

I’m personally jealous of janet and her cowboy boots, need me a pair of those for sure. Especially if i’m going to be a truck driving butch in her FORD F150!!

You’re it!!! If you opened it, you have to do it (it only takes a couple minutes… promise!) Then, send it back to the person who sent it to you and to the rest of your friends.Five names you go by:
kim, kimi, kimbo, kh, mom

Three things you are wearing right now:
jammie bottoms, t-shirt… just woke up… hmmm actually that’s my attire most of the day too. The third will be socks when i wake up enough!

Three things you want very badly at the moment:
1. Coffee
2. a little more sleep
3. a couple things off “the list”

Two things you did last night?
watched a movie, and well, uhhhh starts with s

Two things you ate today:
almond butter on toast, manderin orange slices my girl brought me in bed with my COFFEE!!

Two people you last talked to on the phone:
1. Cathy
2. Sandra

Two things you are doing tomorrow:
1. Cleaning the car and getting it on lease busters.com
2. working, working, and more working!

Two longest car rides:
1. Montreal to Newfoundland
2. a trip we took as kids across canada which i have no memory of… maybe it was traumatic?

Two of your favorite beverages:
white wine and fizzy water sometimes combined!

6 months of us
celebrated as
a day together

a day in each other’s arms
speaking words
of where we’ve been
where we are going
everything in between

a day spent in touch
our bodies connecting
breathing in each other

most of all a day spent
in the luxury of time
connecting

Am officially signing off organizing a lesbian networking group myself and a friend started 2 years ago.

It’s making me sad today, more because  i’m having trouble finding someone to take it over. Over the two years of it going, we saw it bring a lovely something to so many montreal girl’s lives. Including my own, big time. 

I went from not knowing anyone here, to having a whole lovely circle of friends. And of course a new girl… which all came one way or another from the initial seed of outspoken.

Running away from home means giving up the group, so there’s a positive reason for leaving. My biggest hope is someone will step up to the plate and keep it going… any takers (ha)??

If there are any readers out there that are looking to start such a group in your own city, it’s a great formula. It’s based on the structure of a group out of Ottawa, LIX.  I have been out since my late 30’s, so totally missed the bar scene as a way of meeting people. I’ve had to re-invent my life several times, and this last effort was made so much easier with this group.  So keeping my fingers crossed that someone will decide to take it on.

sometimes

i like to put on my

little black silky thing

fill the room with music

light a few candles

and play