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It’s a pretty amazing experience what we are doing in many ways. I personally thought that it would be all wine and roses, we wanted it so bad, and could envision how it looked… a dream that so many people would never get the chance to experience.

The biggest shock was that it didn’t look like wine and roses for a time. It was hard, challenging and frustrating.

There were certianly many moments in each day which were good, even great, but as many that sucked. It was hard to get my head around that’s how the dream looked.

I could see in deb that she wasn’t happy, wasn’t enjoying, and that made me even more fearful, and less willing to look at my own uncertianty… after all who was going to be the cheerleader?

Fortunatly, each day of the last few weeks brings with it sunshine (despite the gale force winds!)… and a true happiness and peace with how it is, the reality of what it truly looks like. Real Life.

I can now see it in her eyes, in her step, and i can now feel it in myself every day, all day. We both take time each day to express it. We are both in a truly happy, happy place.

This experience is an amazing one, one where we get to grow together, count on each other, and enjoy together.  The hard parts break you down, show your weakest sides… but then that all adds to the strenght of who we are, what we can still become.

One of the hardest steps in the process to our airstream dream was we had to find a new home for mr kitty.

Taking him isn’t an option, he’s too much a wanderer, can’t imagine how to contain that when we aren’t in a fixed spot. Though my youngest would have kept him, we both decided downtown apartment life wasn’t a good option for him. 

I’m not a huge cat fan, but mr kitty captured my heart big time. Feeling rather sad this morning missing him biting my face to get me out of bed.

He was a cat with a huge character, more dog than cat (probably why he captured my heart). He use to come on walks with us, and has a million mr kitty stories to his name.

One of my favorite mr kitty stories is about him and jaynie.  The january before last i had the opportunity to adopt a rescue dane. She turned out to be quite vicious, so we ended up giving her back, but not before mr kitty had at her.

She had a thing for him,  i was trying to ease them both into a happy relationship, but when i was out of the house i would close him off in the basement for his own safety. Mr kitty doesn’t take being confined lightly, so was generally pissed off.

One night, after i had been out, i released him from the confines of the basement and went off to bed. Jaynie was at the bedside sleeping, all was dark. Suddenly i heard rather loud steps… stomp stomp stomp…  then all hell broke loose. Nightside table went a flying, dog was yelping, i could hear cat screaming. Mr kitty had actually decided to take matters into his own hands and deal with this 110 lb dog in his own way… a NIGHTIME AMBUSH…. YEEE HA!

The dog went flying out the room, and was huddled against the patio door in the office, desperatly trying to escape this mad cat who insisted on jumping on top of her with all nails flared.

Post that night, jaynie was under his spell, and she never tested him again.

mr kitty (or as dylan calls him, cat norris) ruled the roost with an iron fist, but a soft heart, and i for one will miss him dearly.

Time seems to suddenly ground to a halt from warp speed.  Though we still have lots to do, somehow april 25th seems to have gotten so very far away.

Now that the days are warmer, and the sun has some heat, i find myself drawn to hang out in the airstream in the late afternoons just to remind myself and to dream a bit.

I sit there with the sun streaming in and imagine myself already underway. I look forward to so much of what’s to come… Adventures, an unstructured life, time with deb, time to play, a pared down and simple life. It’s still amazing to me that this is all happening.

Gratitude doesn’t even come close to what i feel these days about this once in a life time opportunity.

we got  official with a small o (official with the big O comes over the weekend) news that the sale of the house is a done deal.  Amazing, still can’t believe it’s all happening.

Course many a detail remains before we are actually off on our adventure… bottom line is it at least starts to unfold april 24th, which is the day we move out.

WOW, holy fuck

We have begun to  put ourselves out there in internet land. Joining groups and forums of this airstream/travelling community. We are deffinatly starting to build a community there already.

I had posted something on one of the forums late last week, and this lovely guy commented back. He and his partner (wheee gay airstreamers!) lived nearby and would we be interested in getting together…. would we?? We leaped at the opportunity.

It was an amazing connection. Felt immediatly comfortable with them, we chatted up a storm, fast friends right away. I love when that happens.

Two lovely guys, spend the winter travelling or around these parts, and own a campground in PEI over the summer months. They even needed a website, so your’s truly is building one for them (www.baysidervcampground.com).

In our chatter over coffee, they had a million helpful things to say, directions to point us in, are wanting to introduce us to the people they know… all that good stuff! We think PEI might just have to be on our list of places to go! The bonus was they also came over and ohhh and ahhhh ed over our airstream dream, which was nice!

All these things falling into place amaze me every day.

If i stop too long and think i get a little scared, worry and get bogged down in that old ego… but if i hold my arms out, take a deep breath and imagine myself flying in the sky… i’m a superhero!

The house sold last night, so the reality of running away from home on our airstream adventure is sure hitting me now.

Equal parts of fear and excitement

We have no idea what it will be like, where we will go… just going to trust that whatever comes our way will be fun, exciting and learning experiences.

As soon as we heard the news that the offer was accepted, i had the sensation of  jumping off a cliff. The reality of what we are doing hit as it’s really here. Here sooner than expected, and so much to do in order to make it happen still. There’s a sureal feeling to it all!

I finally talked to my mother about it, it went as expected. It was her 80th birthday, so i tried to not let the annoyance show in my voice! It went something like this:

Her: I was suprised when DYLAN told me about what’s going on. (note the emphasis on that i didn’t tell her)

Me: react, react… try not to show it, mumble mumble

Her: At first i was suprised, but then i remembered WE ABANDONED YOU when we were 50 (read you are abandoning the boys into that)

Me: react, react… try not to show it, mumble mumble

Well at least that’s over with! It’s amazing how a few well placed words can trigger the heck out of me when they come out of mommy’s mouth.

Thank you Robin for the Freedom to Marry effort, it’s been a great muse to write and reflect. Hopefully it’s a step in a global effort to change the laws in the US.

Today’s post is short and sweet, more visual than anything. I had my lovely and talented friend Karen create a cartoon for my girl as one of her valentine presents.

It’s a visual representation of a journey we are going to embark on this spring/summer, we call it Airstream Dreaming. Tis a story of love, and wanting to build a life together, that has a vision… and vision it does. With 4 grown up children between us, it’s our time. We are officially running away from home, in a 1974 airstream trailer, with out two dogs.

Today the house went on the market www.129jasper.com, openhouse tomorrow. Tired, exhausted, we’ll likely spend our valentines day crashed/cuddled on the couch with a good movie, glass o wine and supper.