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Mar 28
I couldn’t resist posting a picture for Cowboy Hat Day. It’s a picture of me and my girl on our first date… of course in typical kimmi style, she had actually moved in by then! Think we beat the all time lesbian route which is the Uhaul is the second date. I’m personally jealous of janet and her cowboy boots, need me a pair of those for sure. Especially if i’m going to be a truck driving butch in her FORD F150!! Mar 21
Now that the days are warmer, and the sun has some heat, i find myself drawn to hang out in the airstream in the late afternoons just to remind myself and to dream a bit. I sit there with the sun streaming in and imagine myself already underway. I look forward to so much of what’s to come… Adventures, an unstructured life, time with deb, time to play, a pared down and simple life. It’s still amazing to me that this is all happening. Gratitude doesn’t even come close to what i feel these days about this once in a life time opportunity. Mar 19
You’re it!!! If you opened it, you have to do it (it only takes a couple minutes… promise!) Then, send it back to the person who sent it to you and to the rest of your friends.Five names you go by: Three things you are wearing right now: Three things you want very badly at the moment: Two things you did last night? Two things you ate today: Two people you last talked to on the phone: Two things you are doing tomorrow: Two longest car rides: Two of your favorite beverages: Mar 13
The days are busy with all that needs doing to be able to go off on our adventure. It’s this odd combination of life as usual, excitement and anticipation for what’s to come… and a whole other piece which still feels like jumping off a cliff. One of the things that’s keeping me in cliff diving mode is around my earthly possessions. For those who don’t know me, i’m a tad attached to my things. Not in the tv, stereo, microwave kind of stuff. More in the artifacts collected on a beach, bricks from the base of a french fort, bags of sand from beaches i’ve been, things my kids made me… you know the STUFF of life. Packing this time around means every thing i own, needs a judgment call on it. Do we keep it and store it? do we need it with us? do the boys need it? do we get rid of it??? Which for the most part feels very freeing, but other times there’s a nagging sensation that i’m going to regret some decisions in my practical haste! Or that i’m going to miss it being around me. I farmed out a bunch of my favorite art pieces over the weekend and felt a small pang on leaving them behind. The upside is obvious, and i’m still very much in that mode. The upside to letting go of possessions is each thing that goes in a box, each thing that gets crossed off the list is another step closer to taking off with my girl in our little coocoon to parts and adventures unknown. And right now, the beauty of the great unknow is magical. No solid plan, no set frame of how it will look is an amazing gift.
Mar 06
Course many a detail remains before we are actually off on our adventure… bottom line is it at least starts to unfold april 24th, which is the day we move out. WOW, holy fuck We have begun to put ourselves out there in internet land. Joining groups and forums of this airstream/travelling community. We are deffinatly starting to build a community there already. I had posted something on one of the forums late last week, and this lovely guy commented back. He and his partner (wheee gay airstreamers!) lived nearby and would we be interested in getting together…. would we?? We leaped at the opportunity. It was an amazing connection. Felt immediatly comfortable with them, we chatted up a storm, fast friends right away. I love when that happens. Two lovely guys, spend the winter travelling or around these parts, and own a campground in PEI over the summer months. They even needed a website, so your’s truly is building one for them (www.baysidervcampground.com). In our chatter over coffee, they had a million helpful things to say, directions to point us in, are wanting to introduce us to the people they know… all that good stuff! We think PEI might just have to be on our list of places to go! The bonus was they also came over and ohhh and ahhhh ed over our airstream dream, which was nice! All these things falling into place amaze me every day. If i stop too long and think i get a little scared, worry and get bogged down in that old ego… but if i hold my arms out, take a deep breath and imagine myself flying in the sky… i’m a superhero! Mar 02
a day in each other’s arms a day spent in touch most of all a day spent Feb 27
Awhile ago, i posted a story about my friend C, giving me a touchstone and the subsequent impact. Initially she had told me that the stone was one that was suppose to allow you to let go, for me that was certianly the result. Since then i learned that the rose quartz is the stone that represents love. My stone had a big crack in it, so one weekend oh so long ago C was coming up for the weekend, and asked what she could bring. I told her about my stone, and wondered if she could bring me a new one. She did bring me a new one, but forgot it in her bag and went home with it. That same weekend the seed was planted for her and she fell in love with a friend of mine, R. Superstitious i am not, but i am convinced it was the touch stone’s effect. It was weeks later that she gave it to me, it was a lovely one shaped into a heart. I brought it with me on my trip with all the girls to PTown. Didn’t really think of it until the end of the trip, when one night i did put it under my pillow. The next day the earth shifted on my love axis. so run, don’t walk to get yourself a lovely rose quartz and let me know what happens to you! Feb 25
Equal parts of fear and excitement We have no idea what it will be like, where we will go… just going to trust that whatever comes our way will be fun, exciting and learning experiences. As soon as we heard the news that the offer was accepted, i had the sensation of jumping off a cliff. The reality of what we are doing hit as it’s really here. Here sooner than expected, and so much to do in order to make it happen still. There’s a sureal feeling to it all! I finally talked to my mother about it, it went as expected. It was her 80th birthday, so i tried to not let the annoyance show in my voice! It went something like this: Her: I was suprised when DYLAN told me about what’s going on. (note the emphasis on that i didn’t tell her) Me: react, react… try not to show it, mumble mumble Her: At first i was suprised, but then i remembered WE ABANDONED YOU when we were 50 (read you are abandoning the boys into that) Me: react, react… try not to show it, mumble mumble Well at least that’s over with! It’s amazing how a few well placed words can trigger the heck out of me when they come out of mommy’s mouth. Feb 20
It’s making me sad today, more because i’m having trouble finding someone to take it over. Over the two years of it going, we saw it bring a lovely something to so many montreal girl’s lives. Including my own, big time. I went from not knowing anyone here, to having a whole lovely circle of friends. And of course a new girl… which all came one way or another from the initial seed of outspoken. Running away from home means giving up the group, so there’s a positive reason for leaving. My biggest hope is someone will step up to the plate and keep it going… any takers (ha)?? If there are any readers out there that are looking to start such a group in your own city, it’s a great formula. It’s based on the structure of a group out of Ottawa, LIX. I have been out since my late 30’s, so totally missed the bar scene as a way of meeting people. I’ve had to re-invent my life several times, and this last effort was made so much easier with this group. So keeping my fingers crossed that someone will decide to take it on. Feb 16
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